Okay, here is my first shot at blogging. I feel a lot of pressure to be clever and funny. Why is it that publishing your thoughts online for everyone in the whole entire world to see seems stressful?

I sure wish I could resort to my material about Randall right now; that’s always good for an easy laugh. Hopefully a television network will pick up our reality series idea “Hunting with Randall”. If they did you could be entertained by such enthralling episodes as “Randall thinks like an elk”, and “Randall shoots the car”. Unfortunately, we don’t have any takers yet so you’ll have to put up with my thoughts in the meantime.

So, here it goes. In two and a half weeks, I will be leaving for Ghana by myself. It just hit me today that I am really going to Ghana with no plan, no purpose and very little money. What was I thinking? I am the person who at age 20 developed and almost perfectly executed a 10 year plan. ( I didn’t qualify for the Boston Marathon in that time in case you’re keeping score.) Now that I am 30, I am without a 10-year plan and embarking on the adventure of a lifetime.

Not only am I going to Ghana with no plan, when I meet Shaun in Colombo in March, I also have no plan. I may be the first person in history to finish my Masters degree in order to earn $0.

This is really an exercise for me in throwing caution to the wind. The financial part – I can handle. I’m used to being a fund-loser. Who else would have a hot chocolate sale in 25 degree heat and make -$10? (To my defense, that year I was really planning to get on top of my classroom fundraising and the previous September day was really cold!)

What concerns me the most is having no purpose. More than anything, I want to be able to make some sort of difference when I’m overseas. I don’t want to simply live on the surface of the experience. I want to delve in deep and get my hands dirty. What this will mean, I don’t really know- but it certainly doesn’t mean what all you middle school teacher are thinking. (Get your minds out of the gutter!)

I really can’t describe all the emotions that are running through my mind right now. I’m incredibly excited, but at the same time I’m really sad to be leaving behind such great friends and family. (I’m not sad to be leaving behind this crappy weather.) All I can do right now is take it one step and a time, try to live each day to the fullest and end this entry with a couple cheesy clichés.

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